You may be asking ,”Why do I have difficulty feeling so much sadness (depression, anxiety) over my lifetime?” or as a Christian person, “Why doesn’t God take my sadness (or depression, anxiety) when I pray for Him to heal me from this?”
Just like a person suffering from a physical illness such as COVID-19 (since this is on our mind constantly right now) will call a medical doctor or the hospital when their symptoms become difficult to manage (shortness of breath, unceasing coughing, constant pain or pressure in your chest, bluish lips or fingers); the person with unrelieved sadness and anxiousness that interferes with the function of their everyday life (calling out of work due to loss of energy or withdrawing from others, crying a lot over circumstances in your life, feeling hopeless, having the feeling that you’re never enough, you’re inferior, and a list of others that are unhealthy) can call a psychiatric doctor to discuss the symptoms. Think of it this way. Your thoughts occur in your brain, your brain is part of your physical makeup, so your thoughts when problematic can be a sign of mental illness. We are such an educated society that it is becoming more accepted for people suffering with mental illness go for help more and more everyday. Because the manifestation is thought based first, then show symptoms in our actions, it is hard for some to recognize and acknowledge mental illnesses as real. Many still consider them imagined. No longer do we go to the medical doctor for treatment of depression and he in turn as a treatment practices trepanation: a crude surgical procedure that involves forming a hole in the skull of a living person by either drilling, cutting or scraping away layers of bone with a sharp implement. Even true demonic possession (which to believers can be real) is seldom and also handled by a Christian minister or Bishop (Catholic) who is trained in the exorcism of such demons.
We, as a society are much more aware of the causes, better medications for treatment and counseling that improves a patient’s understanding of their situation. See the Resources page for information. Also, I will say that I have been known to see a counselor and not go back but I searched for someone else who fit with my personality better, similar to how you choose a medical doctor. A good psychiatrist or counselor will ask you a series of questions which are proven to help point them to the right diagnosis. If you have no insurance, the county has a county supported mental health department and often operates on a sliding scale based on income. All one has to do is make an appointment and show up. Today, more and more tele-health options are available.
So, in response to the question some may have as to why God doesn’t heal you from your mental illness; I have no answers that are concrete and proven but in my opinion, it’s just like any physical illness. God can and does heal. There’s evidence of that. But consider this; God may be letting you grow in your experience and learn from it with the sole purpose to help others in your same situation. Even if you’re not a believer, could it be that you could still be a light to others with the same symptoms and difficulties? I think you can. No matter your belief system, be helpful, share your experiences with mental illness and be an advocate for mental health. We will always need one another. Keep educating yourself and learning how to overcome. You can do it!